Friday, 22 January 2010

Choosing between family and career

This is one of the most difficult decisions that a married woman has to make. I've been sending out resumes since December last year and one of my prospects responded. I got an opportunity for the type of job that my skill set fits. I was interviewed over the phone then the next day I was invited to come to the office for the personal interview with the hiring manager. I was more excited than nervous, you know being invited for interview for the first time since we got here in Toronto five months ago. I did a little research on the company, it's an IT solutions company with offices all over Canada and more importantly, it's also an ISO certified company both in QMS and ITIL. During the interview, I learned about the job and the conditions that came with it. On my way home, I remember the scene before I left early in the morning. My second son Kyle, who just woke up and after seeing me all dressed up asked where am I going and I replied "to the office". He came towards me and without saying a word embraced me. He cried silently as if telling me not to leave him. Tears started to dwell in my eyes when I said "I'll be back soon." He said, "Mommy, don't go." I left with a heavy heart and remembering Kyle's face, it dawned on me that it's not worth it to leave my kids for that job. I guess I'm not that ready yet. This is what happens when you are bonded with your kids for a while, you never wanted to leave. I guess when the right time (or job) comes, I will return to the corporate world but not in the very near future.

1 comment:

marri said...

i was close to tears when i read this post. it's really hard to be separated to our kids after taking care of them on a full-time basis. getting back to work is much harder to decide when and how. we set our priorities... and giving them a better future tops that.

i hope you can also read this post :
http://arimaraykd.blogspot.com/2009/10/mom-247.html